In to Week Four I Go!!!

I have been so lucky to not have mayor side effects the first couple of weeks, however, not everything can be perfect, right?  Going in to week four and now feeling all those side effects they mentioned that I would have with the Chemo and Radiation.

Although is only 2 more weeks of therapy, it is somewhat terrifying that it will be a debilitating 2 weeks.  The energy is just not there!  Although the last weeks I have been very positive and happy, I think that I now can be a little selfish and not put a brave face anymore and allow myself to deal with this my way.

Mondays are really hard!  Is the beginning of everything all over again!  and now the beginning of something that is actually going to make me feel really bad.  Although radiation did not feel so bad the first few days, I now am starting to feel like I am being cooked from the inside out, I can feel the burning on the inside.   And the Chemo, although is just once a week you sit with an IV, I am now loosing feeling on my feet, my body is numb and my knees are buckling when I get up from a chair.  The medicine gives you a taste of metal in your mouth and nothing takes it away.  I spend the day eating candies trying to mask the taste, I am sure I will pay the consequences for that.  I also feel some vertigo and ringing in my ears.  The scary part is some of the side effects will stay with me, I sure hope not!

Tomorrow is my fourth Chemo, and this week will be ongoing on radiation, not fun being fried under that stupid machine.  All I can do at this point is keep praying that these two weeks fly by!

In the meantime, trying to enjoy the boys, Jan has a Spiderella play this Thursday, where my son will be the handsome prince and Jeremy asks me everyday if it is Christmas today!

Tia Carol's Bday is on Thursday!  I am hoping that I will feel good enough so we can take her on a well deserved dinner out.  She has been an awesome companion during this time, I would have been lost without her!!  She is my little blessing.

Like they say in Spanish "Don't even look back, just keep going forward" or "Pa' 'tras ni pa coger impulso!!"